Stuck at five years old, forever

Yeah, because I looked like that and not like a fucking weirdo

Ever been snow tubing? I have. Several times, actually. Most of those times were when I was younger though. My mother would take me and my brother and we would meet up with our close family friends- my mom's best friend would bring her two children (a boy my age and a girl three years younger). We'd be all decked out in our intense snow gear and still freeze! We'd scream and shriek and just be the super cool kids we were. Is it just me, or am I a little too old to go snow tubing with my family? My mom is like trying to turn my February break into super-fucking-fun family time!!!! Ahahaha... no. I want to be lazy and sit around and gain 10 pounds eating processes crap, then realize I'm getting fat so I do crunches to whatever song I'm obsessed with at the moment. I want to go blow all my money and useless shit at the mall with my friends. I want to see the new movies that look good. I do NOT want to spend my free time going from one "family friendly" event to the next! So anyways, this tubing session was a little different than how it used to be. You see, my family friends are in Florida at this current moment, so no tubing for them. Instead, we had a family +1 day! It was my parents, my brother, me, and my best friend. Before we even left I was not exactly jumping with joy. You know considering it was like 40-something degrees outside, I didn't exactly need 10 frigging layers- my mom just misses dressing me up as a small child! I'm a 32A with no ass, and the few curves I have barely show when I wear my tightest skinny jeans, tank top, and push-up bra, so those bulky snow clothes did nothing for me. Seriously, I just looked kinda fat and lopsided. So of course the 40 minute drive was complete hell- us three kids were in the backseat all smushed together with no freaking personal space. Guess who was in the middle? Then we got there, and it was alright. Nothing special, just some sliding down hills next to all the 5 year olds. I swear, my parents don't remember being teenagers, it was just so fricking long ago. I think the highlight of my day was stopping at Dunkin Donuts on the way home and getting iced coffee... that stuff is like my fucking life. 

Remember when vacation was fun?

February break. A 10 day release from that daily hell we call school. Sure, you don't get to see your friends or your crush, but who needs other people when you can get a good night's sleep? What sucks is when you're traveling. Not going on vacation. Traveling. Vacation is the Caribbean, Florida, cruises, a European country. Traveling is taking a 3 hour car ride to stay at your cousin's house. Who wants guess which one I'll be doing? I never understood why parents feel the need to visit their siblings every change they get; if I got to get away from my brother, I wouldn't visit for at least a year or two. Hell, I'd never visit! So why is it that every single school vacation, long weekend, or extended break I find myself back at my cousins house with their shitty-ass blowup mattress that won't stay inflated and their heat that never seems to be on? February break is supposed to be fun... instead, it kind of sucks. Don't get me wrong, I love my relatives, just not their house!

I'm that one awkward teenage girl...

This is kind of me... :)

Hey internet! My name is Sarah, I'm 13, and if I don't know you I won't talk much. Although I don't say much out loud, my head is a whole different story. In my head, I'm kind of a bitch, so if anybody ever invents mind reading... I'm screwed. I'm trying to get better though. I'm trying to learn to make small talk without feeling awkward and to think nicer things about people. Psh... like that'll happen. I'm just naturally an awkward person. I'm also naturally a mean person. Maybe it's because I'm only 13, but I just have social issues. I'm good at hiding them, but sometimes I'll say something and people are just like "What?" I'm going to kind of keep this blog anonymous (ish), so other than my first name (a super common one so it's whatever) I'm going to change everybody's name to protect privacy and all that fun shit. So I guess enjoy...? It's like a diary but cooler.